"Trying to work out what it means"

Last week within one of the social work projects, I heard some words, which to me were encouraging and a gentle reminder. We were sitting in the garden of the alcoholics residential home.(Me and some of the residents) One of the residents Fred said to me, that another resident Bob was Jesus. Bob is perhaps what a stereotypical Jesus is imagined to be to some- sandals, long hair. Bob replied "I am not Jesus, I am a Christian and trying to work out what it means." This reminded me that we don't have to have everything sorted out, all the answers, we aren't to be a text book, but that we are on a journey of discovery. Sometimes we need reminding.

For me personally over the last few weeks, I have become a bit frustrated! Perhaps its because I like to know the answers. Especially in the context of hospital chaplaincy. Why is this happening, where on earth are you God?

Sometimes its hard, we would like to have all the answers, yet we don't. I needed to be reminded, that actually I don't need the answers, but to try and ask the questions, to think. I guess this last year I've asked lots of questions. I've been frustrated. But yet what I know is that God is there in my questions, that even when I struggle to understand, God is there with me. Plus God's big enough to cope with my silly questions and my bigger questions!