"SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO??"

Well yesterday I met with my supervisor and my accompanist from Guy Chester Centre to discuss the possibility of Atlanta for the next stage of my pre-ordination training. Its an exchange that Wesley House in Cambridge (www.wesleycam.ac.uk) have with Candler School of theology (http://www.candler.emory.edu/)

I am being very indecisive- mainly apprehension. I would be initially applying (so may not get to go- if there were other applicants) any way, but am aware last year as soon as the person on the exchange at present expressed interest he went! Talking to Mark who is there at present he said he would recommend it! Everyone else is saying its a good oppurtunity and an oppurtunity I won't get again! Which of course is true. I think much of me being unsure is apprehension. Speaking to one of my university friends this afternoon though she said- you were aprehensive prior to university, the whole candidating process and so forth. Its clearly part of who I am looking back now- I have no regrets about going to University. I'd be a very different person today having not been. Although a bit cliche God was faithful through University and if I appply and go then there is no reason why that wouldn't be again! And indeed continuing to be in the mean time. I think being abroad would be good for me- something that I do have little experience of. So I am certainly open to the idea- there are a few things that I need to look at and questions to ask. Looking at what I need from my training and how that can be best fulfilled.

I would be doing modules which would be transferable to the UK (Wesley House) for an MA and would be doing any classes offered that I wanted. One of the things about Candler as I understand it is that it is lots of people my age training for minstry- very different from anything offered in this country for pre-ordination training.

So an exciting time, whilst being quite scary too!